It’s thundering outdoors and going to rain.
I wasn’t so sad all previous days. I came to college for the first plain air day and saw on the people who so strange for me so far. We went to the park with our Jewish sitter and stayed him in shadow. It was pretty. I had started to paint and enjoy my amazing pleasure. Days before I felt like I don’t want to paint, to draw, to do anything on the whole. But when Masha come and told us about her parashute jump I’d remembered about my questions and problems. I am absolutely not glad with my life. With my deals and look and sad day by day with no advanse. I felt like a hail of stones was growing inside. Like a stress. I know I need to live my life enjoy the moment etc. But I’m like in a cover what is necessery to take off. There’re questions of phychology and no more.