It’s so unusual to feel nothing painting the study. Previously I could go for plain air even in winter with no any weariness. But now I’m upset and chill on little canvas study. What’s new with all this Volga sights? What’s incredible on this wind and empty full of parked cars street? All these colours. I feel no passion. It is true. Maybe this is one of my usual plain air state as there wasn’t any year without loneliness. I’ve read my old notes of this times and haven’t found any difference with me now.